finally, i will be able to go on a trip with my friends.
we will go to cavite/tagaytay. we will leave friday morning and we will be back saturday afternoon. i want to stay there til sunday though. i want to spend the whole weekend there.
i thought of the things i would want to do while staying there. but i am not sure if i will be able to do everything.
Wednesday, November 28, 2007
Saturday, November 24, 2007
A Different Topic
This is my third post today.
2 days ago, i was surfing the Internet when i found a page about suicide. an actress in one country decided to commit suicide. in my point of view, she was at the peak of her chosen career when she decided to take her own life. it was said that the reason was depression.
then i became interested about the topic.
then i stumbled to another page about another actress who committed suicide. it was also due to depression. the actress was also from the same country. and she was also one of the famous actresses in her country. but aside from these, there was another common factor. it may be a sheer coincidence(and i think it really is) but it was creepy anyway. i won't mention it anymore.
then on another page, i found out about the death of an actor from a different country. and when he committed suicide, someone was with him in the same room. but that person failed to prevent him from killing himself.
and then i thought, "how can these people just end their lives like that?" i know they have their personal reasons, and i have no right to question them. i have no idea of what they went through.
one of my greatest fears(if not the greatest) is death. maybe this is the reason why i feel somewhat uncomfortable reading all these articles(but yes i continued reading anyway).
this post is kind of sad, disturbing for some, or even depressing for other people.
i also feel depressed. i also go through hard times. in fact, all of us do. we experience difficult times. it is up to us how we will react to these situations. and i firmly believe life is a gift.
as of this moment, i still don't know if i will publish this post. but i think i will publish it.
i just want to make something clear, i don't judge these people. i have no intention to make anyone feel awkward or something.
2 days ago, i was surfing the Internet when i found a page about suicide. an actress in one country decided to commit suicide. in my point of view, she was at the peak of her chosen career when she decided to take her own life. it was said that the reason was depression.
then i became interested about the topic.
then i stumbled to another page about another actress who committed suicide. it was also due to depression. the actress was also from the same country. and she was also one of the famous actresses in her country. but aside from these, there was another common factor. it may be a sheer coincidence(and i think it really is) but it was creepy anyway. i won't mention it anymore.
then on another page, i found out about the death of an actor from a different country. and when he committed suicide, someone was with him in the same room. but that person failed to prevent him from killing himself.
and then i thought, "how can these people just end their lives like that?" i know they have their personal reasons, and i have no right to question them. i have no idea of what they went through.
one of my greatest fears(if not the greatest) is death. maybe this is the reason why i feel somewhat uncomfortable reading all these articles(but yes i continued reading anyway).
this post is kind of sad, disturbing for some, or even depressing for other people.
i also feel depressed. i also go through hard times. in fact, all of us do. we experience difficult times. it is up to us how we will react to these situations. and i firmly believe life is a gift.
as of this moment, i still don't know if i will publish this post. but i think i will publish it.
i just want to make something clear, i don't judge these people. i have no intention to make anyone feel awkward or something.
Aspiring Writer
it's a Saturday, the day after the periodical exams. i spent the day lying on the bed.
i am also enjoying the chocolates here.
i am learning new things now. and i just had a crazy idea.
i have been thinking of it and coming up with different ideas. however, i think i will start doing it.
when i was young, i liked writing things. and now, for some reason, i want to write again. and i already have lots of ideas. i even have the titles already(looking/making titles really take time, for me at least). i really find it hard to find the right title.
knowing myself, this attempt may not be successful. the time will come that i will be too lazy to continue this. i think i am just a little excited of this new found interest(not really new found, but who cares). other things will come up, and i may forget everything about this excitement. but there's also a chance that it will be successful. this blog is still active. i think it says something--i can stick to something. as i mentioned before, before creating this account, the most successful(it wasn't a success, but let's call it that way anyway), account i had lasted only two weeks. but this account is already on it's fourth month. so yes, there is a chance that the attempt will be a success.
whatever happens, i will still try. it's just for fun anyway. a past-time. something i will do in case i don't have anything else to do. or if i am in the right mood.
i am not really counting on it but i think i will give it a try.
i am also enjoying the chocolates here.
i am learning new things now. and i just had a crazy idea.
i have been thinking of it and coming up with different ideas. however, i think i will start doing it.
when i was young, i liked writing things. and now, for some reason, i want to write again. and i already have lots of ideas. i even have the titles already(looking/making titles really take time, for me at least). i really find it hard to find the right title.
knowing myself, this attempt may not be successful. the time will come that i will be too lazy to continue this. i think i am just a little excited of this new found interest(not really new found, but who cares). other things will come up, and i may forget everything about this excitement. but there's also a chance that it will be successful. this blog is still active. i think it says something--i can stick to something. as i mentioned before, before creating this account, the most successful(it wasn't a success, but let's call it that way anyway), account i had lasted only two weeks. but this account is already on it's fourth month. so yes, there is a chance that the attempt will be a success.
whatever happens, i will still try. it's just for fun anyway. a past-time. something i will do in case i don't have anything else to do. or if i am in the right mood.
i am not really counting on it but i think i will give it a try.
Purpose
it has been ages when i last read the blogs of other people. i really became busy. but i was able to bloghop a while ago, and i realized it is really interesting to read the blog entries of other people. it's nice to know the stories of other people.
let me share one post i read.
it was about purpose.
no two people in this world have the same thumbprints. this is because we have different purposes on living.
i got this from a blog entry posted by one famous person.
we have different roads to take. some people realize the purpose of their living earlier than other people. many people "formulate" their dreams at a young age.
i don't know what my purpose is. i don't even have a plan on what to do in the future. i don't know what i want to do in the future. i just hope i'll realize it before it's too late.
let me share one post i read.
it was about purpose.
no two people in this world have the same thumbprints. this is because we have different purposes on living.
i got this from a blog entry posted by one famous person.
we have different roads to take. some people realize the purpose of their living earlier than other people. many people "formulate" their dreams at a young age.
i don't know what my purpose is. i don't even have a plan on what to do in the future. i don't know what i want to do in the future. i just hope i'll realize it before it's too late.
Thursday, November 22, 2007
First Time
while staying at the hotel, i went to the bar.
i had a fixed perception of what the bar would look like, what kind of people i would see thare, etc.
but it was different. honestly, i found the place very relaxing. there were a few people in there. there was a band playing. i was sort of surprised. i liked the atmosphere there.
by the way, i only drank iced tea. don;t get the wrong idea that i drank alcohol there.
this is the fourth [ost for the day. i am really catching up. haha.
i had a fixed perception of what the bar would look like, what kind of people i would see thare, etc.
but it was different. honestly, i found the place very relaxing. there were a few people in there. there was a band playing. i was sort of surprised. i liked the atmosphere there.
by the way, i only drank iced tea. don;t get the wrong idea that i drank alcohol there.
this is the fourth [ost for the day. i am really catching up. haha.
Goodbye for now
my sister already left. she left at 1:20 a while ago. she only spent a few days here.
right after taking the exams, i went straight home. i wanted to say goodbye to her before she left.
i also found out that she wouldn't be here in time for my graduation. she wouldn't be able to make it. the graduation date is march 30; and i think she will be here april or may.
before she left, she bought a bag of Butterfinger(YES!!!) for me. THANK YOU!!!!
right after taking the exams, i went straight home. i wanted to say goodbye to her before she left.
i also found out that she wouldn't be here in time for my graduation. she wouldn't be able to make it. the graduation date is march 30; and i think she will be here april or may.
before she left, she bought a bag of Butterfinger(YES!!!) for me. THANK YOU!!!!
Welcome Home
My sister arrived last tuesday. she had a flight here in the philippines.
now this is the reason why i was not able to study for the exams yesterday. i was with her the whole day yesterday. she needed to buy some things and i accompanied her.
i got tired, and i didn;t have the "strength" to study.
i didn't go home too. i spent the night in the hotel. after getting in, all i did was lie down since i really felt tired.
we planned to have dinner but we didn't have much time to do that. she needed to do some things.
there were a lot of changes in the plans.
now this is the reason why i was not able to study for the exams yesterday. i was with her the whole day yesterday. she needed to buy some things and i accompanied her.
i got tired, and i didn;t have the "strength" to study.
i didn't go home too. i spent the night in the hotel. after getting in, all i did was lie down since i really felt tired.
we planned to have dinner but we didn't have much time to do that. she needed to do some things.
there were a lot of changes in the plans.
It's been a while
it's been a while since i last posted here. i have been VERY busy. i spent last weekend doing the final compy of my research paper.
this week we have our peridical exams. as of this moment, we're through with Physics, Math, and Filipino. i had a hard time in Math, mostly because i didn't study/prepare for it. i was at the malls yesterday(Math exam "happened" a while ago). if you want to know the reason why i was out on a hectic week, read my next post.
i plan to make many many posts now. i need to catch up since i didn't post anything for a week.
tomorrow i will take the English and TD exams. i am not in the mood to study. i'm guessing i'll spent my time doing other things(like creating posts. hahaha).
this week we have our peridical exams. as of this moment, we're through with Physics, Math, and Filipino. i had a hard time in Math, mostly because i didn't study/prepare for it. i was at the malls yesterday(Math exam "happened" a while ago). if you want to know the reason why i was out on a hectic week, read my next post.
i plan to make many many posts now. i need to catch up since i didn't post anything for a week.
tomorrow i will take the English and TD exams. i am not in the mood to study. i'm guessing i'll spent my time doing other things(like creating posts. hahaha).
Thursday, November 15, 2007
List
Physics long test tomorrow.
Math Long Test a while ago.
English Research Paper on Monday.
CAT Exams Tomorrow.
Periodical Exams Next week.
Low Grades.
Many More.
..................................................................Welcome to HELL!!
Math Long Test a while ago.
English Research Paper on Monday.
CAT Exams Tomorrow.
Periodical Exams Next week.
Low Grades.
Many More.
..................................................................Welcome to HELL!!
Wednesday, November 14, 2007
Photoblog
for days, i have been trying to create a photo blog. i wanted to have a post where there are a lot of pictures in it. i wanted to share pictures of "The Eastwood Escapade". but there's always a problem. this and that. i will try again next time.
it was a Thursday, the last day of school before Sem Break. we went to Eastwood to enjoy ourselves. we wanted to play bowling but the lady said that the bowling alley was reserved. the funny thing was, we found out that the people who reserved the place were the teachers in our school. i was shocked and amazed when i saw them.
i searched the net for some interesting trivia about different people. i enjoyed it. and also because of this i remembered something.
it was a Thursday, the last day of school before Sem Break. we went to Eastwood to enjoy ourselves. we wanted to play bowling but the lady said that the bowling alley was reserved. the funny thing was, we found out that the people who reserved the place were the teachers in our school. i was shocked and amazed when i saw them.
i searched the net for some interesting trivia about different people. i enjoyed it. and also because of this i remembered something.
Tuesday, November 13, 2007
Pictorial
a while ago i had my pictorial for my graduation pictures. i didn't like the results. the pictures were not really good. one reason why i didn't have good pictures was that the photographer left in the middle of the pictorials. another person replaced him, but the one that replaced him didn't fix our poses, unlike the first photographer. and during the creative shots, he took pictures of me while taking off my jacket (i wanted to take off my jacket for my next pose). worse, i think he considered it as one of my four poses. i should have four poses, but i only did three. bottom line, i didn't like the pictorial, and my pictures.
Sunday, November 11, 2007
Recording
i am now a recording artist
haha. just kidding. i just recorded a song for our music project. it took us 9 hours almost to finish the whole song and record it. there's one certain line that i can't perfect. i always commit a mistake when singing that particular line.
IP
i am the one assigned to make our Investigatory Project(IP). HASSLE!!!! it's already 1 in the morning and i am still wide awake because i can't finish this report.
i was about to write a long post but i need the time to finish my report.
haha. just kidding. i just recorded a song for our music project. it took us 9 hours almost to finish the whole song and record it. there's one certain line that i can't perfect. i always commit a mistake when singing that particular line.
IP
i am the one assigned to make our Investigatory Project(IP). HASSLE!!!! it's already 1 in the morning and i am still wide awake because i can't finish this report.
i was about to write a long post but i need the time to finish my report.
Saturday, November 10, 2007
Tomorrow
tomorrow, we will have our recording for our music project. i hope i can do well.
and i also need to budget my money. i spent almost half of my allowance in one week(on the first week).
i am craving for some things now but i need to save my money. i must not fall in to temptations.
also tomorrow morning, i will go to a place and buy something. hahaha!!! i will go there before going to the recording.
and i also need to budget my money. i spent almost half of my allowance in one week(on the first week).
i am craving for some things now but i need to save my money. i must not fall in to temptations.
also tomorrow morning, i will go to a place and buy something. hahaha!!! i will go there before going to the recording.
Very _________
Dinner part 2
after eating dinner, my father asked our maid to buy food for me. so technically, that was my seconed dinner. i am already gaining too much weight. i need to burn these things. when i told a classmate of mine about this, he said that i should be thankful since i am able to eat. there are people who don't have anything to eat. but i also think that eating to much is the right way to show one's appreciation towards food.
Bloghopping
i visited one blog and i really liked one post there. it's about people wanting certain things while others try to not have the same things. for example, white people want to be tan, while tan people want to be white. there were some quotes that she wrote in that post. one was, "you always want what you can't have." another one was, "you can't have it all."
after reading this post, i read the comments. and Oprah said(according to the comment i read), "you can have it all, you just cannot have it all at once."
it's just a matter of perspective. and we must learn to appreciate all the things we have.
Palig
Palig is a tradition in our school. it's where all students of high school work on different things. for first year they have their sabayang pagbigkas(choral recital??not sure how it' transalted in english. haha) for second year, they have their dulang panradyo(radio play). for third year students, they have their dulang pangtanghalan(play) and for seniors, we have documentaries. our group(i didn't do a lot of things for our group but it's my group anyway. haha!!!) made it to the finals. and a while ago, we won first place. YEHEY!! i admit that i wasn't much of a help, but at least we landed first in the Palig.
School
i just realized that i need to do A LOT of things. SCHOOL RELATED THINGS. i am now looking forward to our christmas break. our sem break just ended but i want to have a vacation anyway.
and 2 weeks from now, we will have our periodical exams. i need to do everything i can to make my grades better.
Composition
i am now doing another song for another music performance. i am only making the lyrics of the song.
Mr. Payaso
a classmate of mine composed a song entitled, "Mr. Payaso". for non-filipino viewers(if there's any) payaso means clown. i like the song.
after eating dinner, my father asked our maid to buy food for me. so technically, that was my seconed dinner. i am already gaining too much weight. i need to burn these things. when i told a classmate of mine about this, he said that i should be thankful since i am able to eat. there are people who don't have anything to eat. but i also think that eating to much is the right way to show one's appreciation towards food.
Bloghopping
i visited one blog and i really liked one post there. it's about people wanting certain things while others try to not have the same things. for example, white people want to be tan, while tan people want to be white. there were some quotes that she wrote in that post. one was, "you always want what you can't have." another one was, "you can't have it all."
after reading this post, i read the comments. and Oprah said(according to the comment i read), "you can have it all, you just cannot have it all at once."
it's just a matter of perspective. and we must learn to appreciate all the things we have.
Palig
Palig is a tradition in our school. it's where all students of high school work on different things. for first year they have their sabayang pagbigkas(choral recital??not sure how it' transalted in english. haha) for second year, they have their dulang panradyo(radio play). for third year students, they have their dulang pangtanghalan(play) and for seniors, we have documentaries. our group(i didn't do a lot of things for our group but it's my group anyway. haha!!!) made it to the finals. and a while ago, we won first place. YEHEY!! i admit that i wasn't much of a help, but at least we landed first in the Palig.
School
i just realized that i need to do A LOT of things. SCHOOL RELATED THINGS. i am now looking forward to our christmas break. our sem break just ended but i want to have a vacation anyway.
and 2 weeks from now, we will have our periodical exams. i need to do everything i can to make my grades better.
Composition
i am now doing another song for another music performance. i am only making the lyrics of the song.
Mr. Payaso
a classmate of mine composed a song entitled, "Mr. Payaso". for non-filipino viewers(if there's any) payaso means clown. i like the song.
Thursday, November 8, 2007
Ahh!! Stress!!!
i am really having a hard time logging in here. i think there's a major problem here or something.
i was able to make another song(lyrics only). some people helped me. but the song i wrote is nothing compared to the song a classmate of mine made. the song's really cool and i like the song. it was composed a year ago(sources said. haha) but i only heard the song this year.
i am really tired. all week i have been encountering different problems. schooland other things. one thing that i find really weird is the thought that someone is wishing to do something evil to me. not that i'm getting paranoid or what, but there's something wrong. no need to mention the name. but this person is acting like someone who owns the world(cliche line, but that's the way i see this person).
i am happy, sad, depressed, excited, etc. i really don't know what to feel because i am going through a lot of things now. i want to stop the clock and take just a short break.
i watched something yesterday, and one line struck me. it said something about, "there's not enough time to enjoy happiness, why squeeze sadness into it." it's not the exact line, but it has somewhat the same meaning. the idea is that life is too short to be sad or depressed. we must enjoy our lives, and keep on being happy. i agree with the statement.
i was able to make another song(lyrics only). some people helped me. but the song i wrote is nothing compared to the song a classmate of mine made. the song's really cool and i like the song. it was composed a year ago(sources said. haha) but i only heard the song this year.
i am really tired. all week i have been encountering different problems. schooland other things. one thing that i find really weird is the thought that someone is wishing to do something evil to me. not that i'm getting paranoid or what, but there's something wrong. no need to mention the name. but this person is acting like someone who owns the world(cliche line, but that's the way i see this person).
i am happy, sad, depressed, excited, etc. i really don't know what to feel because i am going through a lot of things now. i want to stop the clock and take just a short break.
i watched something yesterday, and one line struck me. it said something about, "there's not enough time to enjoy happiness, why squeeze sadness into it." it's not the exact line, but it has somewhat the same meaning. the idea is that life is too short to be sad or depressed. we must enjoy our lives, and keep on being happy. i agree with the statement.
Tuesday, November 6, 2007
Problems
i am having a problem uploading pics. i can't update the TD blog.
i hope our teacher won't give us(me and my partner) a failing grade. i borrowed a card reader, only it couldn't read my memory card.
i had a very bad day today. i won't give the details anymore. but i didn't enjoy this day.
i hope our teacher won't give us(me and my partner) a failing grade. i borrowed a card reader, only it couldn't read my memory card.
i had a very bad day today. i won't give the details anymore. but i didn't enjoy this day.
Monday, November 5, 2007
Interesting Day
i think i had a great day today. some unexpected good things happened.
i got the highest score in our English long test(waaaaaw). totally unexpected. i even thought i heard the wrong name.
then we had an early dismissal. i think we only spent less than 10 minutes in our last subject. YEHEY!!!
i was able to create a post/blog entry in the TD blog.
i enjoyed my dinner. i ate out. for some reason, my father told me to eat out(he didn't give me money though. hahahahahaha!!!!!!)
but there are also two things which i didn't like.
first, the Internet encountered problems while i was uploading the pictures for my TD blog.
second i was not able to watch my DVD. i hoped i would be able to watch many parts today, but it took me a while to finish(truth is, it's not yet finished) my blog entry(TD blog).
this is the first day of school after the sem break. i still don't want to go to school. i just want to lie down and enjoy my day.
i got the highest score in our English long test(waaaaaw). totally unexpected. i even thought i heard the wrong name.
then we had an early dismissal. i think we only spent less than 10 minutes in our last subject. YEHEY!!!
i was able to create a post/blog entry in the TD blog.
i enjoyed my dinner. i ate out. for some reason, my father told me to eat out(he didn't give me money though. hahahahahaha!!!!!!)
but there are also two things which i didn't like.
first, the Internet encountered problems while i was uploading the pictures for my TD blog.
second i was not able to watch my DVD. i hoped i would be able to watch many parts today, but it took me a while to finish(truth is, it's not yet finished) my blog entry(TD blog).
this is the first day of school after the sem break. i still don't want to go to school. i just want to lie down and enjoy my day.
Friday, November 2, 2007
My Thoughts, and Feelings, etc
i have been having problems logging in here. i am having a hard time posting. WHAT'S HAPPENING??????????
a classmate planned a "practice" today. but all we did was play, eat and fool around. we didn't do anything related to the project. this situation is not new anymore. this has been the way ever since. i think i will be more surprised if we did something related to our project.
i just realized that i would soon be leaving this paradise. it's already Friday(truth is, it's already 1:30 am,Saturday). sem break will end soon. i am not yet ready to wake up early again. attend classes. or do anything related to school. i am very comfortable now. i wish this weekend will not yet end. i am still enjoying this vacation. i am sure that i will be busy again.
there are a lot of things going on my mind right now. so many that i don't know what to feel. i don't like this feeling. i guess i am thinking too much.
after the "PRACTICE"(if one can call it a practice), i walked all the way to the station. i didn't go there directly. i wanted to take a long walk. i decided to pass through different places. i liked the walk.
i wish i had the power to clear my mind even for just a day. or even for just an hour. i am getting tired of thinking about different things. it seems like i worry too much.
i never had dreams--meaning what i want to become in the future, what i want to do, etc. but now, there are a lot of ideas in my mind. there are now a lot of things that i want to do. MOST of them(if not all of them) are UNREACHABLE. i know these things will never happen, but i am enjoying the thought of these ideas.
a classmate planned a "practice" today. but all we did was play, eat and fool around. we didn't do anything related to the project. this situation is not new anymore. this has been the way ever since. i think i will be more surprised if we did something related to our project.
i just realized that i would soon be leaving this paradise. it's already Friday(truth is, it's already 1:30 am,Saturday). sem break will end soon. i am not yet ready to wake up early again. attend classes. or do anything related to school. i am very comfortable now. i wish this weekend will not yet end. i am still enjoying this vacation. i am sure that i will be busy again.
there are a lot of things going on my mind right now. so many that i don't know what to feel. i don't like this feeling. i guess i am thinking too much.
after the "PRACTICE"(if one can call it a practice), i walked all the way to the station. i didn't go there directly. i wanted to take a long walk. i decided to pass through different places. i liked the walk.
i wish i had the power to clear my mind even for just a day. or even for just an hour. i am getting tired of thinking about different things. it seems like i worry too much.
i never had dreams--meaning what i want to become in the future, what i want to do, etc. but now, there are a lot of ideas in my mind. there are now a lot of things that i want to do. MOST of them(if not all of them) are UNREACHABLE. i know these things will never happen, but i am enjoying the thought of these ideas.
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